...Exams are so not over btw. Totally feels like they are, though. Past few days have been spent enjoying SWEET SWEET FREEDOM which technically hasn't existed in my life since....can't even remember. Threw away my MF15, followed by my data booklet, and now when I look at all my notes and files and prelim books knowing I can just go burn them all whenever I wish....FEELS GRRRRREAT SIA.

Still, 7 days till the official end. Self-imposed 3 day brain break is over and tmr it's time for sexytime with 10000 bio mcq questions. Which is honestly a must-ace so must take it seriously. /: Even though right now it feels like I can even somehow forget to turn up in school next thursday

Anyway, the journey through the As have honestly not been what I expected. Naively went into it thinking I would come out of every paper (ok fine besides econs) feeling I just got full marks -_- (what happens when you only took psle before) But anyway. Whatever it is, I'm just going to seek comfort in the fact that I prayed everyday and before every paper and God will restore all. And at the end, whatever appears on my results slip, it's God giving me what I need. Whatever it is, come next march, I won't just be a PSLE cert holder!!! WOOHOO

Can't wait for it to come and go. Then I can finally throw away my entry proof, then it'll be grad night, then starting work and then I can finally stop living off my parents, and I can go and find out how on earth to write a personal statement and start on my app. Sexciting.

Quite interested in the sph journalism scholarship /: first and probably only scholarship-related email I've actually opened and read. Might just consider applying if my prelims are decent enough..

But..what happens when I tell them the only thing I'm interested in writing for is Urban? (cos that's the only part of the newspaper I never ever miss and read from start to end) Or the food section of sunday Lifestyle? Okay no scratch that food reviews are a bad idea, looking at the pictures of the people who do them now. Cheryl knows what I'm talking about heehee

Omg hahaha. If only they had internships for things like harper's/elle/style. Or even better, style men. I'd take it in a snap (:

PRELIMS ARE OVERZXZXZXZXZZZX and it just hit me that they ended on the 25th of sept, which was the exact same day promos ended last year which feels like just yesterday as cliched as it sounds because I always say that. But omg srsly, time flies like an arrow and fruit flies like a banana! Never get tired of that line (:

Anyway in the two days since prelims ended I gave myself (ok am still giving myself) the most massive brain break ever and it feels GRRRREAT. Within these 3 days, I finally got my mountain turtle self to Ion and I liked what I saw so I must find time to go back there again with my mother and her wallet, I went to a library to do something other than studying for I think the first time this year and got myself nice proper books so I can read something that aren't notes for once (eh Kok I borrowed the funny cheena book by Lisa See hehe), caught up on watching House, and the most awesome of all: caught up on my pri school indulgences (NEOPETS and a bit of RUNESCAPE)

But brain break unfortunately ends tomorrow and time to restart on hxxxcoring before everything I studied for starts to leak out. Need to find somewhere conducive to pass my time productively cos school's out as the library will be flooded with j1s mugging for promos sigh. But need a break from school anyway, reckon I've seen too much of it this year. Excited for lessons on fri though, to top it all off first lesson is GP HAHA and we have something exciting to tell, or rather show, our favourite tutor

Sigh but as of now, truly nothing separates us and the big As and I've been dreading this all year. Results will be coming back soon enough and I just hope they'll be just the right combination of affirmation of my efforts and encouragement to mug even harder so I'll get what I want at the end of the As. Left this exam up to God and He has truly brought me through it well enough (: And if I get an A for GP I owe my smart little brother a buffet treat for knowing so much about the Chernobyl incident

Haha ok bye I'm going to enjoy what's left of my brain break (: Remember to end your brain break soon too only 6 weeks left hehe

3 down 6 to go.

Pretty sianz so far actually cos math hasn't been very nice to me (feelings still aren't mutual sigh) and chem 3 today which is supposed to save my paper 1 was pretty /: But everyday I still try to remind myself to ultimately leave it up to God and pray for the strength to soldier on cos next week will be a loooooong week. And to do this for myself and God and not for nice-looking results just for the sake of having nice-looking results. This isn't the real test anyway.

Ok stop stoning at the computer screen econs now no matter how nauseating it is

Over the next 2 weeks, just remember to trust God for:

• the ability to remember everything I need to know no matter how long ago I read the notes
• sudden bursts of wisdom during exams to solve whatever seemingly unsolvable questions
• good time management
• 100% alertness but not under the influence of caffeine which makes me pee
• the absence of the need to go toilet during the paper so as to make good time management possible
• the ability to ignore whatever noise people around me are making no matter how bloody irritating it is

Okay jiayouz everyone. 2nd last hurdle already. Drink more water (but not before you go into the exam hall), sleep early and keep the faith (:

Yesterday in school was too fun.

Moment of the week: When TZ grabbed the moneybox from me, took out 20 cents, and spent 5 minutes with Izzah trying to corner me and slot the coins into the front of my shoe before realising the blue line on my shoe wasn't a freaking coin slot

Lesson of the week: GP on friday HAHAHA 

Last real week of proper lessons in RJC next week. Plus it's a 5 day week so ALL OF YOU BETTER TURN UP EVERYDAY


edit: note to self find and complete stupid gep survey which i left...somewhere cos now that ct has sent a reminder to submit it no choice but to submit it or testimonial might be at stake

 Just remembered something Cheryl was telling me today - about how school life will be so different in uni, with modular systems and not having a proper class anymore and everything. And it's just a few more weeks before school life as I've known it for my whole life will be over - no more assemblies no more sexytime in a23 no more running to the canteen to beat the ytf queue every break no more just bumping into random friends along the corridor...

...SO STOP PONNING SCHOOL EVERYONE!!! We are already in the end times!!!

 Stupid gep survey made me feel so useless today. Thanks moe for helping me see that in my 2 years in rj I've achieved nothing -.- 

Anyway I chucked the stupid survey in a corner alr because now is quite a bad time to feel stupid. Plus I'm too lazy to erase all the nonsense Tz wrote on it. Ok but srsly out of the entire list of academic programs I'm sposed to tick off if I participated in them, I swear I've only heard of barely half the list. Since when got things like Raffles Ecological Literacy Programme?? Or Raffles Renaissance Programme? And what the hell is Science Focus? Chem focus counted anot? at least I'll have something I can tick. 

Ok whatever I'm still gifted no matter what the government thinks after they see my half blank survey


Oh God I'm exhausted. 

Got inspired by Cheryl and Kok's posts so I'm here to say that I had a pretty awesome service today too (: Felt really screwed at first because my regular sunday morning trip to 7-11 for coffee was interrupted by 7-11 being closed for renovation (realised later on that a temporary one was open right next to it all this time -.-) so I was totally sure I was going to doze off without coffee and be real unholy. In the end I kept myself awake the entire time by laughing my head off non-stop throughout service hehehe. But besides all the laughing I thought the message today about doing the taste test with God was rly meaningful (: 


Sigh and so week 5 begins and the battle continues!!

p.s. am such a twitter addict now that I was this close to following pastor Judah Smith (guest speaker at church today) on twitter too. HAHA AM SUCH A FREAK

 Oh no okay I did something I told myself I would never ever do:

twitter.com/tttttami

Realised many of my posts begin or end with like 'wow its t_w_!' or (mostly in j1) 'omg its t_w_ alr HAVEN'T STARTED STUDYING!!!' hehehe you get the point. So anyway it's the end of t3w3 and wow this is really the beginning of the end ): No more common tests left between us and the prelims. Real school ends this term. 6 weeks to prelims, 18 to the Big As. My life as I know it is really ending soon sigh and I am so not ready

Anw this week was pretty awesome. As Kok said, almost kinda like going back to our mad j1 days :D Tz actually made it to school ALMOST the entire week, we discovered our love for happy sticks, I know exactly how Cheryl, Tz, Izzah and my kids are going to turn out in the future and we know who to send all these kids to, we have a concrete plan to win Tz a nobel peace prize, and we actually went out twice this week, once for harry potter (WOOHOO) and once to eat :D 

Must say that ct2s were really kinda shitty for me. Guess I was kinda naive to think that I could only go upwards from ct1, especially when on hindsight the amount of effort I put in in term 2 totally wasn't proportional to term 1. Good lesson learnt I guess. But must really praise God for econs which I really saw as a lost cause initially, now I am totally alot less scared of it (: 

Studying pace right now is going along comfortably but definitely need it to pick up pace real soon. I am so going to kick prelim ass, for real this time. Hang in there everyone!!!


p.s. I actually feel like getting twitter WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME

 I guess the real battle starts now. Dark times ahead!!

Lord grant us strength! 

Wow I feel good. Post cts all I mostly did was watch alot of ugly betty, gossip girl, and finish skins s3 :D


FREDDIEEE

Hahaha other forms of wasting my life include reading FML about 5 times a day and laughing like an idiot in front of the computer screen while at it, and also TFLN which is almost as hilarious

Essentially I've been letting my brain rot AND I MUST SAY IT FEELS GOOD


Too bad it can't last. Back to srs work tmr ): Ready for term 3 baby. No more sleeping in lectures I promise! If not I'll allow you to take more rly unglam photos of me Cheryl xD 

Ok bye going to watch the tonight show with conan o'brien it's awesome!!!


Only two more episodes left for the Ultimatum ): 

I NEED A HOLIDAY TO MELBOURNE

ok no la what i need is to close this window and go back to math. -.- ARGH my brain is turning into mush!!!

1) MY COMPUTER DIED ): don't know how many files i can save, if at all. luckily r project is over, otherwise it will honestly be not funny at all
2) it's midway through the second week of the holidays and everyday i still don't know what the hell i'm doing with my day!?!?! definitely not hardcore mugging like i should be. i think i need to feel panic then i will be more productive. panic only sets in on the last week though.
3) one thing that i do everyday though is watch THE CHANNEL 8 9PM SHOW :D benedict goh yum yum yum
4) wish i could read your mind..
5) i miss my classmates where have you all been hiding? why no one in school ):
6) I'M GOING TO EAT PORRIDGE BUFFET TMR ;D and i think sushi buffet sometime later this week HAHA LIFE IS GOOD
7) luckily i've been running. heh so i don't feel guilty and i think i lost 1 kg!!! unless the weighing scale is off..or it's muscle degenerating into fat. argh!!
8) love the holidays actually i get to wake up at 10 everyday!
9) CAN SOMETHING BE DONE ABOUT THE WEATHER?
10) alright chem chem chem, now now now ):

THANKS GUYS FOR EVERYTHING, even the public embarassment hahaha but my 18th will DEFINITELY be hard to forget. When I told my dad about today he was quite amused and said since I hardly get a birthday before the school holidays, it should be special anw.

Heh so thanks again everyone, my friends are insane but still kinda awesome. :D